Monday, November 20, 2006

Ah, let me steal some time to blog. This is not neccessary but i think i want to do this, before hitting Physical Chemistry.

We have come a long way in our path of taking examinations. How we do not have to study in primary school to study in secondary school to study super hard in junior college. My grades seem to be dipping in an uncomfortable fashion when it shouldn't. Then again, grades aside, the process of studying for exams is never easy. Having to sit for an exam takes away the joy in learning the subject because we do it as it is conditional. But having the exam is essential in many sense, in this elite system we practise where many fell victim to.

Primary school was really great, minimal amount of hitting the books. Secondary was alright, memorising and doing, just need to put in the effort. Junior college was bearable, studying and not getting the results became a norm after a while. Then your expectations start to relax, you stop being THIS hard on yourself(you realise you cant be getting 90/100 for everything). Then when you come uni, you learn to stop whining about having not enough time to revise. You learn to prioritize everything and you learn to maximise whatever you have to the fullest. So education is a learning process, a progressive and hard journey when a lot of times you fumble against your wish. Many a times, the fumble could cost you unimaginable consequences, but you move and roll along anyway.

This is absolutely random. Then again beside studying, there leaves many situations for you to deal with. Sometimes I look around and I see many vicious situations that are just waiting to eat me up. Okay to make it less scary, I see many quicksands that are wanting to swallow me up and sometimes I really just want to stop struggling and go with it. Go with the wrongs and go with the easy. And these are the times when God tightens His hold on me. So many situations, so many underserving treatments. Sometimes there is like this balloon within me that is waiting to burst, waiting to cause damage. The next thing I know God takes it and deflate it gently. Like how He always does.

And this sweet amazing grace showed me more than anything else could ever did. Even though the world says NO I know God says OK. And I know I'm a bad person, but yet He kept me away from the potential damage that could do more wrong to me than right. The only reason why I want to be better is because Jesus inspires me to. Now that Christmas is coming, I hope He gives those who are struggling, a better reason to believe than what the world can offer.

On a lighter note, study hard ntu peeps. A week more to go before we can smile in the face of everyone whos exams just started. Now that's evil so do it to your friends only, in case your actions infuriates strangers who might just beat you up. Hang in there! When exams is over, I can think of so many other things to do. Hahh. (: