Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I can be so extreme at times, I marvel at this ability of mine. I could feel so angry, so intense and the next moment, I would feel nothing. One time I could feel like walking away and yet the next moment I find myself smiling along with everyone. This is erm, split personality? Is it a disorder of any sort? I hope not! -_-"

I was so freaking angry with my macbook(because it is down again). So angry I nearly threw it on the ground. But thankfully the more sane part of me stopped the crazily angered me. I saved my own ass when I decided to just throw it to the bed. I don't know what the heck is wrong with it, and it frustrates me greatly. But after coming back from training, I felt at peace with it. I mean, I don't really care if its functional or not already. Just don't care. Hahaha. Weird huh.





Anyway, happy photos ba!

Monday, February 26, 2007

Listen to my words, young man: The world is freaking unfair. And there is no point fighting for impartial treatment. So many times, so many people they only serve who they want to serve. Quit thinking about how unfair they can get and start living with it.

Sometimes you will feel that you are outside of the picture. But you could still be a good person and walk away. That is what you are capable of doing.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Sometimes, plans are made but not fulfilled. Sometimes, you have appointments but you take them for granted. It's like something you briefly mentioned and then you chuck them to the back of your mind. Or worse, you pass them up for something else.

I think it would be rude, wouldn't it?

Anyway, on a lighter note: I LOVE CNY! This whole week has been fantastic(because there is no school..) and I had loads of fun. Although the fun is going to have to stop soon, still loving every bits of what's left now.

I had like 3 steamboats and many many fun outings. I watched a lot of tv today and finally got to catch my Grey's. And of course most of you would have know that Meredith didn't die. You really think that the writers would change the name of the show(after writing Meredith off) to garner the highest ratings ABC ever had since 2000? I'm glad they didn't do that.

This week episode is meant for a tear feast. There was so much going on and it felt so intense, so heavy. I shall not spoiler much here in case nicky or peishan kill me, but all I could say was: it is good. I love the last scene. Finally a positive(though sad) ending. It had Denny and Izzie side-by-side to each other and they smiled cause they knew they would always have each other.

Somebody say 'Awww' to that.

Other than this episode of Grey's, a few episode of According to Jim and one episode of Heroes, I haven't watch anything else! Must control..... must control. :P

Thursday, February 22, 2007

I like to sit in a car/bus when it's late, with my ipod with me and the aircon blasting into my face. It gives me a very amazing feeling that I don't really know how to explain. The music is good, the temperature is good, me in my own world is good. I had the privilege to do this in two days, once yesterday in ps's car and another time today in a cab. Today's one was relatively unenjoyable because I really needed to use the restroom while in the cab, but I survived it.

Byebye sadness, hello mellow.

I didn't study AT ALL this whole week, which translate to a certain amount of panic right now. But what can you do with lost time? Nothing, don't even think about it. Recess week is exciting, I need to get more work done. Sigh!

Weekends here again. Wooohooooo.

Did I mention my team outing was fantastic! Finally got to see Mindy! I love them. Even those that didnt turn up.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Dreamgirls is a great movie! (: Can't wait to lay my hands on their soundtracks!

Hope CNY has been good for all of you! And YEW LEEPENG! Even though I scold you say you made the most noise compared to the rest, I still love you la! You know that right? Hahahahah :P

You are my bestie leh! Bestie is cannot be replaced even though we irritate the heck out of each other! But don't drive me to my grave yet la, still too early. Heheh!

So random. ~

Friday, February 16, 2007

wo shi prisoner. she is the cop.

So I broke out of prison but got caught again. Damn sian. I think my second attempt should see me tattoo-ing the stupid prison blueprint on myself. But wait, I dont think I can withstand the pain.

Oh no den how?


HHAHAHAHA. :P

Apparently my macbook hates me.

Ben thinks I cannot own an apple product. My ipod and macbook seem to share a rather strained relationship with me. Since owning an ipod mini to the current ipod video, I have got them serviced at least 5 times. And this macbook is even better. After getting it serviced, it spoilt again after coming home for a day.

Excellent.

And what was ironic about it was that I thought I had it serviced so that it would become better, not worse. But now it was in an even lousier shape before I handed it to the people at the service center. Can someone please shed some light?

But other than this stupid problem my mac has, other things have been going rather well. At least I finished my CH1011 assignment. Why do I have to do programming! It took a good 2 hours to finish the assignment! Left me with a super sore right eye, which someone told me it looked pretty red even though I didnt really do anything to it. Maybe a blood vessel raptured while I was trying to figure out how to do the work! CH1011 is evil. Like the apple center!

I must, I repeat, MUST cut off all contacts from these two! And Shonda Rhimes. She is damn evil. How could she write Meredith off like this! Just like this! Oops, sorry for the spoiler. Heh. You cannot make the lead of the show dies, if you do, you better change the freaking show's name.

I hate cliffhangers. I am all about spoilers. Hahaha.

Stupid GA. Never mind about that. Friday is a good day! Cell dinner was good though they have a habit of eating in silence. Hahaha. Then service was fun. Followed by supper with Peris, Clara and Audrey. Really feels good to be hanging out with them and talking. Just talking. I think I may need to talk sometimes. Hahaha. Like this. Like how it is today.

The ghost of the past starts to haunt.
Like how it choose to cast its shadow over the scampering me.
But You will be my light..
Right?

I recount a recent conversation with my friend, X. X was concerned about Friend Y so she asked me how is Y. I told her I dont really know. So X commented that if Y doesnt tell me, she most probably wun tell her too. Then I told X that Y isn't being biased or what, she just doesnt want X's world to be dark.

Dark like how we know it could be. I would be sorry if anyone has to cross over and know that. So for now we want to keep you guys on the other side. The bright and shiny and flowery side, which exists by the way. Yep.

Van is coming back! And we are discussing about GA now! Urgh this is unbelievable. Happy new year to all! Enjoy the break. (:

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Happy Valentine's Day to all of us! To all those who celebrate life! And to the many who believes in love, it is indeed flowery! So let's catch the happy spirit while it is still around, for we do not know nor can we calculate our next fall.

Smile like you mean it! heh.

Monday, February 12, 2007

When the recess week approaches, it could only mean one thing: Exams are coming! :(

I can't believe it, even though I know it, this semester flies by despite my protests. I kind of like this sem because my timetable is by far one of the best I ever had in my don't-know-how-many-years of education. And then I have so many shows I want to watch! 24, Friends, Heroes, House, CSI, GA, Prison Break, According to Jim.. They are all sitting inside the computer, calling me to watch them!

I must resist! Though I cannot wait for the latest episode of GA to finish downloading.. Oh! And the I think Mediacorp latest series are rather appealing! The sad thing being the pressure from my workload and the fact I do not have a tv in my room. The 9pm show is rather funny! Elvin Ng really, really, really looks damnnn cute! (: But then I am rather good at predicting the progress of the show, I think chit and Joanne don't like my spoilers. Heh.

Anyways, Joanne koh is super funny! She is like this funniest person I have ever met. Everyday spent with her is a day filled with much joy and laughter. She is so off and crazy sometimes that I will laugh until I have stitches. But she is my hongkong shows partner and she is my go home together partner! I think I cannot do without her.. (:

Haha, someone wore crocs into lab today and he told the person not to. This comment was instantaneously heard by our lab group which was just next to them. And we had a really good time laughing at the poor fellow. CROCS! Oh my. Joanne thinks its covered, but she doesn't realise that it has holes, which puts it under the uncovered shoes category. I so love lab (: I so love the hall 4 fellowship of me, chit, ps, elaine and joanne koh. heheh!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

ke yi bu yao zhe yang ma? wo kan dao hen xin tong.

):

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

I have some thoughts overdue. They were like some strings tugging non-stop at the back of my mind. Telling and pushing me to have them posted somewhere, so that at least, I've made a copy of them.

Let's remember the good times. The monday brief conversation. How Man U won the Spurs. Just like how Singapore won Thailand. The fun talks during training. The little amusing things you and I both did. The supper and the lunch. The lectures and the breaks.

Could we please, disregard the downside of things? It wasn't even innate, it was environmental. It means that it doesn't even have to be this way, yet it chose the most cruel form to present it. 'It should be our year.. your year.. my year..'. Our hands were not made to hold up our worlds that threaten to crash down all the time. I know His hands are, that's why we should always let Him.

And for the part where they say there are some things in life that you can never have. Then there is nothing else I could say about that. We know and we live with that.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

I grew up in sunday school
I memorized the golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that lead him up on Calvary

But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say,
But I'll never be the same because
He changed my life when He became'?

Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history.
He's the air that I breathe,
The water I thirst for,
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm
Aware of just how fragile life can be.
I want to tell the world I found
The love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see.
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want to live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that He is..

Everything to Me - Avalon

Even my dear leepeng thinks this is a wondeful song.

Hello there, good morning! How was your day? Today is a good day for me. Maybe it was because I woke up to constants. Have I told you how I am not so big on variants? It is like how I am not big on my greens. But never mind, I digressed. So I woke up, on my silly purple Garfield bedsheets and I actually woke up earlier than planned. Suprise, suprise! My roommate will be so impressed with this feat that I think you may have to expand some effort in convincing her that it(my feat) did happened.

The bedsheet is a constant.

I also woke up to a text message from my friendly neighbour sparing me some details of her adorable brother and somebody else's brother which I have no apparent interest in. Still, that wasn't the point. We exchanged a few texts and she answered, "nba as usual and yours is church as usual." Then we smiled at these constants. I kind of like the 'as usual' part, makes me feel somewhat comforted. Neighbour, neighbour! Do you like the constant too? I am sorry I assumed you smile at your phone like how I did, but I had to conjecture that you did what I did too. Because it would make the whole sentence more compelling.

God's love is a constant.

I was ruminating about a certain line from the Father. I couldn't quite let it pass. It was jumping at me throughout the week and I liked it. I like how this captures my attention and triggers my inquisitiveness. Hey it feels like I am not the only one asking questions now. It felt good, this variant. Do you think it will be the only variant that is good?

Oh wait! I forgot to mention my new funky friend Andrea Gan! Today I realised she reads my blog. And boy is she whimsical and gelastic! I think she is a truckload of fun. First her brain kept inhibiting the fact that I am 20 instead of 22. Then she tried to set me up with different guys before declaring in exasperation that guys are too smelly for any good. Started her whole anti-guy theory. I can think of one friend from school that can shake hands and be good friend with her with regards to that aspect.

Hey you! I know you are reading my little blog, thus decided to write about you. You should stop hanging out with Miss Ye Jingen too much! But talking to you was fun, I don't know why it feels so uncannily easy to talk to you. I always thought that it will take much more than just my part to crush that stubborn defense mechanism of mine. But I guess sometimes, I work differently from what I perceive myself to be. Oh, would this be another variant then? It could get a little unnerving..

I think this self-ranting style of writing captivates me. I think I like it! Don't you think this variant could be another good thing? Except that I do self-rant a lot previously so it aint much of a deviation. But hey! We all need to lighten up some times. So this is me lightening up.

I hope you have had an excellent day like I did. (:

Friday, February 02, 2007

In the light of certain events, I am seeing some light, feeling some degree of enlightenment I have never felt before. For now I see life as something much more than life, value it's fragility that I once scorned at. Emotions are overrated, at least to me. We can suppressed that, if we really try hard enough.

I have been thinking. Life is short. Like really short if you were to look at it. There are more uncertainties than constant, which makes the whole experience really frightening yet overwhelming in a good way. And we shouldn't spend such moments being angry with someone, mulling over disappointments, being meticulous with the wrong details and totally missing out what we were made to be. I don't want to commit such a grave mistake.

Don't get me wrong, many of you tend to do that often. I am not saying we should be flamboyant and live life loud the mistaken way. Nor am I advocating that we should not be appreciative of the small details and be grateful for the simple things. All I am saying and all I am thinking that we should make it count.

It wasn't meant to be easy, it almost never was. But each one of us made it through anyway. Perhaps we half-dragged and half-forced ourselves through the darkness. And maybe I had it better cause I have Jesus and He gave me people I could count on. I guess we all just need to take a little time, make a little realignment and maybe we would be right.

I hope we could be right...