Friday, June 29, 2007

I heard this on TV:

" I don't know what is love, but I know what it isn't! "

Such strong words but how true that actually is. Many times we realise that we know the negavity of one thing more than the good of it. For example, we know that we are wrong and that is usually the only thing we are right about. It is kind of sad if you were to think about it...

Oh well.

Comtemplating a move to LJ or Wordpress soon. Any suggestions?

Monday, June 25, 2007

I came home a little earlier today. Dinner is not even ready as I typed my words here. I remembered the many times when dinner was cooked but I was not home yet for it. This small reversal of roles disturbs me a little, but I am smiling as I typed my words here.

Things have been good since my Orang Asli Trip, but I really couldn't find the time to sit down and recount everything here. Yet in my heart I fear that the more I drag my memory, the less accurate they might turn out to be. My eyes just ran through entries that two of my friends posted. Rachel put up something about her Laos trip and Jasmin, her Germany trip. I am hearten because as I read their writings, I know they are doing great in the Lord. That alone makes me smiled as I typed my words here.

I am still waiting for the photos from the Orang Asli Trip.

You know a lot of times, we go about our lives, toiling and dragging our feet through the day only to discover at the end of the day we don't even know why we try so hard. Sometimes we don't even know who do we try so hard for. When I read Rachel's post, I know it is going to inspire many people. And I know everyone is going to see how meaningful she has been leading her life there and even here in Singapore. The bottomline is not what she does that is meaningful but who she is doing it for. And I know deep down that the joy of the Lord is so evident that she must share it with others.

For in 2Cor4:6
For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us he light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ

In the Orang Asli villages, once the sun set, everywhere else is pitch black. Because they do not have electricity, darkness knows no boundary there. A simple torch can light up a whole area there.

Many times I wish to share the light with friends whose hearts are fast being engulfed by darkness. I think of how life will be different if they have a good reason to wake up to everyday. I wonder how it will be for them to have their hearts bursting with the joy of the Lord like how I feel. I wish for many things, and I hope that I will not stop at just wishing, but will one day be able to see it come to past.

I can't wait to see Rachel again!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Mosquito Bites Count:

Left leg: 6 bites
Right leg: 9 bites
Left arm: 2 bites
Right arm: 6 bites
Neck: 2 bites
Face: 2 bites

Total: 27 bites

I hate mozzies. But it is all worth it!

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

I am back!

I love the mission trip and I heart my bathroom.

:D

Monday, June 11, 2007

Feelings are way too fragile for anybody.

Feelings and emotions that are laced with so many intricated strings attached, how can anyone be up to the match? Handling with feelings is like playing with fire, one wrong move can send the tide toppling to the extreme.

Or handling feelings could be like handling dry ice. If you do it right, it will be very fun. But if you mishandled it, the dry ice will literally bite your hand. And they say females are complicated. I attribute it largely to the fact that we feel way too much for our own good.

This is why I say females should always date a guy. Much more easier to handle than you know, your girlfriend.

Hahah.

Do you know what bugs me the most during work?

When the patients stroll in one by one instead of coming all at once. The moment I plonked myself onto the comfy chair, the second patient will come and I'll have to stand up again.

The feeling is so... URGH!

But of course there are times when you encounter patients that makes it so hard for you not to frown.

Patient: Do I need to take off my shoes?
Me: No, you DON'T have to.
Patient: *Proceed to remove his shoes*

Then ask me for what!

I call this 'character moulding'. Hahahah. :D

I am desperately in need of more sleep because I am barely clocking 5 hours everyday. I need a bed... I need my comforter...

Because I am quite tied up with the mission trainings and stuff, I kind of miss my outside friends already.

I miss peishan! And I miss michelle.
I miss chiteng and that stupid leep.
I miss persis chua and deborah chen.
I miss yuzheng! And I miss training.
I miss sean's kong rubbish!

Tsk. I haven't even pack my bags yet.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

It is kind of funny how you think that you don't remember certain things but realised to your horror that you always do. So I concluded to myself that hey, maybe I am not as forgetful as I made myself out to be.

Anyway, mission trip this thursday all the way to next week! I can barely wait! (:

These past days have been spent doing a couple of things. And one included the yanking of the band-aid off a still pretty raw wound that I told myself to forget. And I guess at maybe some point of time I probably did, yet couldn't help but go back to the dark place for a while.

But God said in His word in 2Cor12:9 that His grace is sufficient for me. And I am still learning to hold on to that. Yet I believe still very muchly that as long as God is in charge, it will eventually be alright.

Aferall, faith is believing the unseen isn't it? And faith is when you can't trace God's hands in the things that are happening to you but you choose to trust His heart. Faith comes from the love for God.

I am so mumbling to myself nowadays.


I wish we didnt have this in common.

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Complete - Parachute Band

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord.
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears
Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You

Thursday, June 07, 2007

My results are okay, by God's grace.

I woke up this morning to check the results and after viewing it, the first thing I said was 'Thank You Lord'. Because without His grace I wouldn't be able to attain such results. It is not fantastic but at least I didn't see a 'C' this semester. And even though I thought I might not make it for the 2 most-widely feared modules(namely Thermo and Organic Chem), I didn't fail!

And oh Karen, I got an A for his module! See cute tutors are effective teachers. Tested(literally) and proven. Heh. I think my friend is very amused by me. =| Again, God's grace for the A. Because despite all the distraction(him..) during the lessons and the inability to focus on the right thing(look at your tutorial not him!), I still manage to make it. Haha. Nina you must get A too :D

I recall my conversation with a certain someone last night. It again amazes me at how God choose to work sometime. And I couldn't thank Him enough for being this crystal clear(pun intended if you know what I am talking about). Anyway, it got me thinking for quite a while now.

And I still haven't stop thinking about it.

It's kind of draining me emotionally and mentally with all those thinking and dwelling, but I am asking for more energy and strength. Geez, I don't want to act like a 80 year-old woman. Haha.

Recharge, for there is work to do.

Trust in His heart even when you don't see His hands.

I learned that a while ago and it wasn't easy.

Reach for His heart, walk closer to His heartbeat...

"Be brave. I know you will" he said.

And yes I have been, like I always will be, with God holding the easily frozen hands of mine.

Then I'll be fine.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Obedience is always better than sacrifice.

And it seems one day I will pay dearly for my laziness.

Monday, June 04, 2007

I spent the whole of Vesak Day watching my hk show. And it reminded me again why I love hk drama so much. Now that US TV shows are on hiatus, I finally have time to watch/rewatch my hk shows.

I just finished a show by Ma Jun Wei and now I finally understand why minghui likes him so much. He looks good with specs and has a nice voice. I keep telling chit that maybe I have something for guys with the surname 'Ma', because Ma De Zhong is one of my favourite TVB actor too.

So when I was just watching the shows, I can't help but realise the difference between hk drama and US TV. I can safely point out that both are equally captivating(maybe because I am a tv junkie).

US TV shows boast good storyline, great plots and unusual themes. Shows like Heroes and Friday Night Lights win the audience over with their impressive plots and themes. As for Grey's, with a team of great writers and producers, it is no wonder that it claims the No.1 spot.

The thing about the American actors is that they do act well, but pale in comparisons to the Hong Kong actors. I can only think of Hugh Laurie when I think of impressive American actor. And maybe Felicity Huffman. But Hugh is British to start with. Anyway, I think it is hardly the actors that captivate the audience, the plot needs to stand out on its own to be able to do well.

However if you look at Hong Kong TVB dramas, they do not have super elaborated plots like US shows. They have no special effects nor scientifically enthralling stories like CSI or Numb3rs. The story lines are hardly bold, due to a relatively conservative Asian society. But what is it that makes them so successful?

The actors.

TVB actors are trained professionals who do their job very well. You hardly get newbies who act like a piece of log(think Channel 8 newbies) or normal performance from the veteran actors. When the veteran actors act, they shine. I think if you were to compare the leading actresses in TVB and American TV, you will know that the TVB actresses can cry on a whim. That alone makes their whole act more convincing than than some prime time actresses who cant even shed a tear when required.

A good example of superb acting will be one by Guo Ke Yin in Jiu Dian Feng Yun. She is already a household name but I felt that she did exceptionally well in that show. Together with Joe Ma, they made it so hard for the audience to guess who was the 'bad guy' or 'good guy'.

Because they kept lying to each other, there are a couple of scenes that were emotionally charged but she carried it off very well. I remember there was one scene when she had to quarrel with Joe Ma and to initiate a breakup. She flared up and when she turned to leave him, her tears flowed as if they had already knew how to synchronise with the scene. Fabulous performance, as expected of her.

Maybe because in TVB, the scripts are completed and the whole story is finalised before they start shooting, that makes TVB dramas flow more smoothly than US TV. US TV shows adopt a much more flexible method where scripts are written episode by episode and they shoot each episode weekly before airing it. This makes room for changes but it sometimes also disrupt the fluidity of the show.

Okay I shall rant no more. I heart MaJunWei and MaDeZhong (:

And to karen: please go for consultation with him! at least u have the chance to. I didnt because he was overseas for business trip. :(

Debs, FOC are lame thats why I never went for any. Which orientation camp did you sign up for?



MaJunWei and Ron Ng



Looks good when he frowns. hahaha



I like the both of them together. It's so 'awwww'



Ultra dashing in a suit, hor michelle? (:

Sunday, June 03, 2007

The week has passed. According to Thaddeus, my update is nothing but short, so I shall declare that I am going to have a long update today.

Team outing on monday was very fun even though only 7 of us showed up. We were missing Van(York), Rach(Cambodia), Jasmin(Germany), Mindy(States) and Xintian(Headache). But it was still nice and fuzzy. We decided to dine at Sushi Tei and I thought it was a rather good though expensive choice.

So we sat there, talking about our lives. We reminisced about our canoeing days together, updated each other about what's happening now and speculated a little about the future. All these under the dark night sky. Me and shumin decided to cab home(Yay!) and God answered my prayer by providing a cab in the most unusual way.

And it was good time on the cab again! Going home with shumin has always been good times. We talked, we discussed and we debated about everything and anything. It's such a pity that I don't often get the chance to talk and go home with her.

Cp team outing on friday was not bad too. We dined at Kenny Rogers and tingyi even thoughtfully prepared a game for us. I had the luck to actually win one of the prize (: And my dear roomie won the other one, together I think we make a good team hahah. It was good food, great company and we played the night away.

I had to bunk in with peishan because of an early dental appt on saturday. By the time we reached her house, I was already half asleep and before I knew it, I was REALLY asleep. She woke me up a couple of times because she was sleeping all over the place but I still had a great night sleep. Haha. (:

You know we should avoid attending wedding dinners like the one Leepeng's sister held. The love songs, sweet atmosphere and blissful newly-wed will somehow throw you into a potent blend of illusion. And thats what weddings do to you, I was told. That you will have the want to get married too!

Don't you laugh at me because even peishan agree that it seems so nice to get married. Oh yes! Let's find her a good guy soon. (: Anyway, the food was very tasteful especially the shark fin. We just entertained ourselves while the dinner progressed and I feel happy that the newly-wed are going to be really happy ever after.

But then when I recall that I dont have a room to stay next semester, I don't know how to feel anymore. I guess the only thing I could do now is to pray real hard to God for Him to provide a way. Hello NTU, do you know how far you are away from Hougang? Do you know I really need to have a hall if not I will be waking up at 630am for my 930am lecture. Which is a damn evil thing to make me do. Sigh, please be nice. :(

I haven't finish rambling.