Tuesday, October 31, 2006

I've been thinking to myself: why is it that being kids is all we want to after we grow up? I know there may be a few that begs to differ but I dare think that really, many of us secretly feels that being a kid is much more better than a grown-up. So I've been wondering and trying to find out the best way to justify this need to refusing to grow up. Growing up is definitely something we could do if we want to, but I haven't really met anyone who actually wants the process to be speed up. It hurts and it sucks, we all know that. Save for the many problems and responsibilities we face, many issues and expectations. Reality is really never kind to grown-ups, not that they are any nicer to other age groups. My point being, being a kid means that your brain doesn't register the fact that Reality sucks, not until you start to grow up anyway. It's like Reality bribed kids with a lollipop or something, making all of us think that what matter was really if your best friend plays with you or not, or what present are you getting for Christmas.

And when your age starts to hit double digit, the lollipop is gone and you feel like you are caught in an awkward dream. Maybe an awkward nightmare. So we know the past is good because we have been through it. We knew how it was like, there is no uncertainty about what it could have been because it has already happened. So we do feel safe about it because we have knowledge. And knowledge, as the old saying goes, is power. So i've been thinking, why do we always look back to the times when we were young and everything was simpler and more picture perfect. Point to note, this doesn't really apply to anyone who hates his/her childhood. I am more like generalising.

I think one of the best thing about kids is there is no need for damage control. We do not need to display any concern for other things because well, we are kids and kids aren't suppose to care this much. So we lived and we did the things that we actually want to do, without much considerations. We've done wrong things, failed many times and made bad choices. But we're kids, so we can actually put all that behind us better than a grown-up will do. We don't think too much, we are silly but we were happy. Damage control is one of the hardest thing grown-up have to do. For self-destructive people, its so hard to hit that damage control button because it wil takel freaking a lot out of you. Like a train meant for wrecking, forced to deccelerate so that no one gets hurt. The force applied may have been much higher than the force experienced if it really did collide.

You see, certain things are so hard to control. Damage being one of them and we wouldn't know what's wrong without the pain because we might not be the one experiencing them. It is a messy affair and though hard to achieve, we all definitely need some damage control sometimes. The pain is there for a reason right? Ha. I assure you if you do not get what I am talking about in this post, it is definitely not any deficiency of anything on your part. It's just me, ranting. Which is what I tend to when being left alone. Right. (: Bye for now.