Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Alright, so it's confirmed. Mission trip to medan for me is on.

I am so so excited+happy yet super guilty+sorry at the same time. Who say contradiction of emotions don't happen?

To my darling chiteng(aka baobao),
sorry for this last minute change that made you angry. I know we have planned this long long time ago and we both have been way too geared up for this trip. And yet now I single-handedly disrupt the whole plan and made it very troublesome for you. Please do forgive me, because you know I can't live a day with you pissed off at me.

I know I sound cheesy but you are one person that has the ability to contain my madness and one that keeps me well and safe. Through my 2 years in NJ, your prescence means the whole world to me, I think you might be more important to me than my boyfriend, haha. Which by the way, I don't have one. I remember the things you have done for me and I thank God that He arrange for you to stand by me.

I still remember how you clean my dirty accelerade-filled shaker for me. How you help me fold my training shirts(dirty or not), how you share your food with me. Our crazy times in the k2, and our crazy times in the neoprint machine. Or how we pace each other till one of us die in the k1. How we combined efforts and cover peng's face everytime we take photo. The morning calls you have given me endlessly to make sure I wake up in time for trainings/school/competitions/exams. All the outings, trainings, mugging, I remember. How you cry when I cry and how you fret when I fret. How you pick up after me everytime I threw a temper. The way you silently picked up my crumpler bag and shoebag after I threw them down and walk away. How you always watch over me and took care of me without complaints. The nights we spent, talking on the phone about all sorts of nonsense(which suprisingly will come true the next day).

You see, I always remember.

Many apologies about the sudden changes, you know I didn't mean for it to turn out this way. But I know you will forgive me, not because of anything but because I know this is you. Kind and forgiving towards a brat like me. Thank you for embracing every side of me.

You know I appreciate you, and all that you have done. (:

Don't cringe or what okay, this is from the bottom of my heart and I don't care if it sounds cheesy. Haha.

After seeking your forgiveness, I am at peace. I know we seek to please God not man(that's why I chose to go ahead with the mission trip). So baobao I hope you understand. The most I promise you not to talk about you and mally mal mal for 3months. Hahahah.

June is exciting huh.

God really made everything possible! I really thought this medan trip is mission impossible for me because of so many factors.

1. I promised to work in CGH until the end of June and I know they have shortage of staff there. By taking leave to go for the mission trip I felt that I was going back on my word. So I told ern that I couldn't go with them to medan.

However just yesterday, my boss came to me and told me that I only need to work until june 2 because she is going to hire a temp staff that can work longer than me.

When I heard that, you don't know how relieved I was.

2. I am supposed to fly to Hongkong on the 13th with chit and the mission team is only coming home on the 14th. This one a bit tricky. Well actually it became really tricky.

I really wanted to go for the mission trip partly because my boy is going, and partly cause I never went for one. So i called to Jetstar to check if I could change my departure date for the Hk trip.

'$146. You have to pay $146 in order to change' the person informed me.
I nearly wanted to die. I couldnt afford to incur such losses so I had a super bad headache that day thinking what I should do.

This morning I made up my mind to go for the mission trip. So I called Jetstar again to make the changes.

'$73 is what you have to pay, miss'

I couldnt believe my ears when I heard it. Apparently the fare difference between yesterday and today is a negative 40 bucks. (: 73 bucks I can pay. Haha.

So it's saving from now to the mission trip. I can almost see God's hand in every part of consolidating this trip for me. How awesome is that you tell me. But I would need to eat grass from now onwards until june. Maybe God will turn the grass in sharkfin(my fave food) huh.

Eh, don't laugh at me la. Remember? Everything is possible with God mah.

Brillant days ahead (: Thanks to everyone who gave me encouragement about the mission trip.

My June
4 - Global Day of Prayer, National Indoor Stadium
5 to 7 - ML Leaders Camp 2006, Sentosa( Yay!!!!!)
9 to 14 - Medan Mission Trip, Indonesia
15 to 23 - Hongkong (:

Woohoo, God watch my every step in all that I do so I may honour You.

I just hope that my dog won't miss me so much :(

Looking forward to June! And to the next team outing which I hope EVERYONE will turn up.