Monday, July 31, 2006

It's a lazy afternoon. The sky is grey and it's rainy.

Jack Johnson and Donovan Frankenreiter are right for the mood right now and I don't even feel like typing anymore. It has been ages since my muscles have ached like this, guess I really haven't been training much on my own.

Training camp has been good. Got to know more people, talked to more people, played with more people. I believe in the aspect of team bonding, this camp has helped us achieved a lot. Physical training wise, another good push for myself. Time to do what I used to do to myself in NJ if I want back those fitness. Angel and Devil game was fun! I did enjoyed it.

Some things made me think a lot. Which is not very good. Tried to stop myself from a lot of emotional comparison. But anyway, my dear peishan is so sweet to have drop that sms that day when I was feeling the fatigue. Really brought a super huge smile on my face. Many thanks to you peishan, you whom have cared and expressed it though it may be unlike you. Haha. And it was a tad depressing for me to go through the nights without you, can't help but think back on all the times. And I know it has been more difficult on your part than for anyone of us, this whole episode. Don't say I left you alone cause you have never left my thoughts during the camp.

Oops, I hope I didn't sound too scandalous! :) All is truthful and honest opinions though.

Away from that, let's talk about something else.

School is starting. My room is up and packed. Ready to move in ready to do many things. Just needed to scrub the floor and guess everything should be fine. Heard enough comparisons of hall 4 with other better halls. Heard and seen enough praises for other halls. Too tired to refute, too depressed to regret and too late to change anything. The only really redeeming factor had got to be the fact that me and peishan can be neighbour. Other than that I really cannot think of anything better to make myself feels alright. I guessed God put us there for a good reason.

I need to recuperate. I hope you are alright. Despite all these conflicts and drama, I do hope you are alright. And that you can live with this decision you have made for yourself. Because when the time comes for you to think back and regret, you will be the one taking the pain, not me.

Not everyday is a bright and sunny day, aint it?